Shinu hodo Kimi no Shojo ga Hoshii

Tooru Nishimori is a thirty-one-year-old office worker who considers himself entirely unremarkable in appearance. Yet, against all odds, he is married to Mika, widely regarded as the most beautiful woman in their company. To any outside observer, Tooru seems to be living an enviable dream, having secured the affection of a woman far beyond his perceived league. However, beneath this seemingly perfect marriage lies a deeply personal torment that he cannot share with anyone. Mika was the first and only woman Tooru ever dated, but she had been involved with numerous men before him. Despite his profound love for her, this reality gnaws at him relentlessly. He constantly battles his own jealousy and obsession, convincing himself that his desperate wish to have been her first is both impossible and something that can never come true. The weight of these suppressed feelings eventually pushes him to the edge, culminating in a fall onto the train tracks—an incident that inexplicably triggers a miracle. What follows is a narrative that defies conventional romance. Blending twisted psychological obsession with a surprisingly youthful and pure emotional core, the story chronicles one man's overwhelming longing regarding his wife's past. It is an unconventional exploration of love, insecurity, and desire.